Well, I have some weird news for you guys. So, after my post on Thursday morning, I was on my way to work and whilst I was in unfortunately involved in an auto accident! There was a State Trooper (quite luckily) on the scene and I didn't even have to deal with the other driver (who was cited). I wasn't hurt really, but my back and neck are a little sore from suddenly tensing up and probably from the impact (my car was struck on the rear side and it spun around, scary!!!). It's the first time that I've been in an accident and I was super shaken up. For some reason, I had the brilliant idea to keep on going to work (I was almost there anyway) and I didn't really have time to emotionally react. I spent 6 hours at work just, yanno...working and then my poor back started to hurt. I'm feeling better today.
I still had to audition for Super Amazing Conductor™ yesterday afternoon. It was kind of hard for me to keep focused since I was super traumatized by...oh, I dunno...being in a freaking car crash! But, I woke up yesterday and sounded decent, so I was ready to go and YES, I did wear the gray Dreamy Drape dress with the Foxy Tights! They looked so good together and that dress is just so soft, it almost makes you feel like you have nothing on, which is cool and creepy at the same time. I was feeling so good!!!! It was kind of rainy and windy but it was HOT! I got to the venue on time and I was ready to go and here's what they had asked me to prepare:
- 2 Arias from the BAROQUE repertoire, at least one of which is in English
- sight reading
I made the assumption that this meant, it wasn't even worth their time to see how well I sightread and I proceeded to have a full-on, emotional, opera-diva breakdown. I kept my composure until I was outside the building and then I let loose! I cried in front of the building, I cried on the train on the way home, I cried in the street and I cried back at my apartment! I think I had a delayed reaction from the car accident or maybe I had some pent-up frustration, but let me tell you ladies, I was inconsolable for about 3 hours.
After I got back to reality, I saw more clearly. As a musician or any performing artist, you never know WHAT to takeaway from an audition, until you get the results about the gig. The ones you think you rocked, you don't get the gig and they never want to hear you again and the ones you feel like were kind of sucky, you get the gig. You cannot predict whether or not you get hired from what you experience at the audition because it's a weird situation. I definitely over-reacted. I will patiently wait for either a "Thank you, but no" letter or a contract. Either way, it's not the end of the world. This was my first full on Diva Breakdown™. I think I'm fully inducted into my field now...wearing Anthro and all.
Anyway, I needed to be with my best friends last night, so I went to my good friend's performance and afterward, we went to dinner and cocktails! I of course was wearing Anthro! Here's what a post-breakdown, post-car crash, Anthropologie addict looks like at midnight!
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| Anthro: Dagmar Shirtdress, Anthro: High Prairie Belt (The Black colorway has quietly disappeared from the wesbite?), Nine West Boots (old) |
Kay, I am SO glad you are safe! It sounds like you had a very scary experience. Please be sure to get examined by your doctor--a lot of times you don't begin experiencing symptoms until days after the accident and if you need massage therapy (who doesn't!?) or some other treatment, the other person's insurance should cover it since it is a) related to the accident and b) documented. You look radiant in that Dagmar dress. You inspired me to buy that dress yesterday, BTW. Ditto for the Two wheeler. My credit card company thanks you and so does Anthro. LoL. Don't try and stress about the audition--God will present you with another (and better opportunity)! All the best!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Crys. I'm definitely going to give my doc a call this Monday morning and see what she says. A couple of other people have also suggested that I monitor how I'm feeling for days. Massage therapy sounds pretty good!!! Ah, you'll love the Two-wheeler and the Dagmar! I have a love affair with shirtdresses.
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Oh wow Kay, that sounds AWFUL! So happy to hear that you're safe and sound from that wreck. I wouldn't beat yourself up about being emotional after that audition at all - you probably DID have a lot of emotional trauma that needed to come out (it was good to let it go!). I admire you for what you do - and doing it after a car crash, no less!! - it can be so stressful, and you handle it with such grace and are always so positive (I was a vocal performance major in college, and I just couldn't handle the stress and switched majors after a year!). Go you! And you look so gorgeous in the Dagmar! Love to you, and take it easy, gal!
ReplyDeleteWhat a day! I think it's pretty awe-inspiring that you actually managed to go through with the audition, and to hold off on letting the crying out until everything was over. You're amazing and should give yourself a pat on the back.
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Mandy and greatbleuheron,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your kind words! Mandy, I didn't know you were a voice major for a year. It's wacky, isn't it??!
I considered canceling, but then I didn't know when they would ever want to hear me again. I thought if the voice was still there, it would be cool. I suppose I was just pressed the pause button on my emotions until it was safe to have a cry-fest! You ladies are so sweet! Thank you for your support! I am chilling out right now with a Thermacare heat wrap on my back. These things are so so awesome!
omg Kay! How awful that you were in a car accident! I'm really glad to hear that at least for the most part you're okay!
ReplyDeleteOh no, I was so sad to hear about your accident! Thank god you came out mostly okay though! I had a car accident a few years ago and had a similar long delayed reaction...I went to work and only at the end of the day did I start processing things physically and emotionally!
ReplyDeleteOh wow Kay, that sounds AWFUL! So happy to hear that you're safe and sound from that wreck. I wouldn't beat yourself up about being emotional after that audition at all - you probably DID have a lot of emotional trauma that needed to come out (it was good to let it go!). I admire you for what you do - and doing it after a car crash, no less!! - it can be so stressful, and you handle it with such grace and are always so positive (I was a vocal performance major in college, and I just couldn't handle the stress and switched majors after a year!). Go you! And you look so gorgeous in the Dagmar! Love to you, and take it easy, gal!
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